Wednesday, November 22, 2006
[*$iL.eNt. $t.RuGgLe.$*] ...another day has passed, and i learnt another thing. i was filled with fear this morning, school, for one of the very rare times now, felt ever so daunting and scary. given a choice, i guessed i would rather have chosen to not have gone to school today, but we should be responsible people and running away or avoiding the matter ain't gonna solve the problem.
politics is the last thing that should have existed in choir. among the J1s, politics was never a problem or issue. everyone could coexist with one another. but i guess this time round, the EXCO got ourselves unknowingly trapped, by things we never did wrong. the world was never meant to be fair and it will never be.
but i guess it's alright now, cos we got the understanding and support from the J1s. it's alright, cos we're gonna make it through. we just gotta be more careful in future. cos the world out there isn't as beautiful as i'd thought it out to be. and seriously, it's disappointing how ugly the world can get. why can't people be nicer to each other?
i didn't know how to respond. even right now, i'm still in shocked that we made the wrong decision? how could it be? we merely agreed to meet them. we didn't know what was going on, what they wanted to meet us for, we had no idea at all what they had installed for us. innocently, we just agreed to meet them and just that agreement and we got into trouble for being respectful.
i never knew we would have so much problems to face, so many mountains to conquer, especially mountains that were created by people we least expected. but this world is full of surprises and the least expected usually happens. we'll be alright. we'll make it through. we just need to trust God and have faith. let us not dwell on the pass. life goes on. time waits for no man. dwelling on the past ain't gonna change it. just move on and try to prevent such things from happening again.
i guess we all need to humble ourselves. humility is important. there are always people out there who are better than us, especially since we are not perfect. our greatest enemy are not the other competitors out there, but ourselves. the ultimate battle rages inside each and everyone of us. we gotta be strong and believe that we can do it. we've done it before. we'll be able to do it again. we just need discipline to ensure that it happens everytime. we are capable of it and i know we will make it.
whatever happens, take joy in the fact that we've gone this far together. we shall not let ourselves down. we'll do our best. we will not give up and we'll support each other.
love,
cheryn ...
posted at 11/22/2006 09:20:00 pm
